Friday, October 17, 2008

Just starting....

I am 17. My friends says that I am a bit more matured than they are. I ask them why. They tell me that is because I have been through more than a regular teenage girl in my country should. But I do not understand that. I have been through break-ups, emotional breakdown, split personality, cheated, backstabed, betrayed and etc. Those are the things I have been through for the pass 4 years in high school (not including this year). Now the girl I see each morning staring back at me in the mirror seem like a prefectly normal teenage girl. In school, I have heard enough rumors that makes ears go deaf. Throughout the 4 years I have learned to walk away each time my friends tries to tell me what are the rumors about me that are spreading. Now and then there would be girls that are younger than me or a friend that I am not really close to coming up to me and asked "Don't you feel stupid and ashamed of what you have done in the pass?" and each time i would answer them "No I am not. I am not saying I am proud of what I did, I am just not ashamed of it." because those are the things that make me who I am today......

I do not know who will read this post. What I know is whoever read this will judge. And its ok. Because everyone judge. Including me..... So feel free to judge cause in the end we are still human.