I heard my heart shattered today. I knew this would be the last. It will never be mend again. Somehow I don't mind it to be a cycle, because I know at least there is still love...
I don't pray for her to find her way. I have no rights to say she is lost. Just pray that God would keep her safe and take care of her. Which is something that I can no longer do.
I know I am not much of a good friend to her. I apologies for that. But I would stand my ground for things that I did not do wrong. In which, I believe that she would come to understand it one day.
I will not say my goodbyes to any of 'her'. I no reason too. I always think that Blair is stupid. No matter what Serena does to her. She forgives. Somehow again, I believe that all three of us are the same. We just all need different time to adapt.
Both of you will do great. That is how both of you are. And always will be... I won't disappear. I won't run. I won't be in denial. I won't avoid. I would just be here. Then again, I start wondering...does it matter?
