"Hungover"

I fought with him last night, or should i say 4 in the morning. I am so worried about him. I keep wondering what is he thinking, what is he doing, is he sad, is he angry, is he suffering, is he feeling sick, is he... is he... is he...! So many questions running through my brain like a waterfall flowing down non stop. I wish he would tell me the truth about his feelings. I wish that last night didn't happened. I couldn't say who's fault was it, because both of us is kinda in the wrong. And the situation he is in just makes it worst. Whats more hurtful, is that now his brother and friends thinks i am bothering him all the time. Which i don't!

Waking up, knowing there is people thinking bad about you and your parents just start going crazy on you when you see them in the morning, is like waking up from a hungover. I am just so lifeless... Walking around without directions. My brain is about to explode due to millions of questions stuck in it. I am having a kind of feeling that i have no idea how to describe. Is like there is something draining out my soul from my body but i can't figure it out, what is it that is doing it! That feeling is so helpless. I know something is not right with me but i can't do anything to make it better....

So sick and tired!

Everyone, a promise is a promise! Try your very best to keep it! Don't tell me shit like, a promise is meant to be broken! If its meant to be broken, then why made it in the first place.

If you care about someone, you would go through length to find out about her. Even when she doesn't answer your call or reply your messages. You would go Facebook to check on her status, you would go her blog to find out about her life. And not just complain about the fact the she leaves you! FUCK YOU! Suck it up would you! Stop saying you know nothing, when people is practically showing you everything you need to know! Just admit the fact that you are just so FUCKING LAZY to go and find out!

M3 and my pathetic friendless life...

Every where i turn in my class, i see groups of people. There is Chinese group, Malay group, Indian group, emo group, smart group and etc... Then i realise something, i am sitting in the middle of all the groups. ALONE! All by myself. I have known that this would happen the moment i stepped into my class 2 months ago. I guess i have been denying it all this time. But now i realise i would never fit in to any of those groups. Not that i am picky. Is just that i am so crazy-weirdly-different from all of them. The way i see things, the way i speak, the way i through life, the things i do, the right and wrong i think, is just so different from all of them.

Its sad, you know... How i go to class alone, go back alone, at home alone again, go out only with my boyfriend. Is like i don't have a life at all. Even married woman don't do that! I have no friends to go shopping with, hang out, talk about silly stuff, sleepover and etc. All i do whole day at home is either sleep or online. I sound so BLOODY BORING!

My kind of boy

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in Blogspot to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
If your a girl- post it as my kind of boy..


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Erm... no. We can work on that later. Just don't too awful...

2. Smart?
Not too smart. I hate those people! Their speak as if they know it ALL!

3. Preferred age?
Maybe a year or 2 older or same age. I have never been with anyone older or younger. What is wrong with me????!!!

4. Preferred height?
Taller but not too talk. Just right, so when we kiss, it won't be awkward or hard.

5. How about sense of humor?
I am currently having a crazy-hyperventilating boyfriend! What do you think??!!

6. How about piercings?
Kinda turn off. Especially those dangling ones. So CC!

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Is this even a right question to ask??? Of course if i have some bad habits, i would really want him to make sure i change.


8. Pink hair?
HAHA! I have a feeling Dave will do this if i do it first! But NO!

9. Mushy or no?
I used to say no, but i found out that i am pretty mushy myself.

10. Thin or fat?
Err.... muscular??? Not too muscular. I hate HUGE muscles! They look like they are going to explode any second.


11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
I am sorry people... I am not racist. I don't mind having different races friend. I have lots of them. But i still prefer chinese. But not typical chinese!


12. Long hair or short hair?
Just nice!


13. Plastic or metal?
This question is not making any sense!

14. Smells good?
NO BO! I don't mind natural smell. I love..... Dave's natural smell!

15. Smoker?
NO! Eww! But if occasionally during party or occasion outing then its fine.


16. Drinker?
Ok but not drunk. (Dave go hyper, he don't get drunk) (HE IS WEIRD!)

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Yup yup! But i like bad boy sometimes...


18. Muscular?
As i said, not too much!

19. Plays piano?
Cute! But then he will have long fingers... hmm... guitar will do!

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
AWESOME!


21. Plays violin?
Hahahahahaha! JOYESH! I don't mind.

22. Sings very good?
Don't have to be. Good enough not to hurt my ears or any else. That is good enough. Is not like i can sing any better.

23. Vain?
Haha! "Am i cute today?" "Is my hair messy?" "OMG! My hair does not go with my style!" I will give him 1 tight slap!


24. With glasses?
Cute!


25. With braces?
I guess we wont be kissing that much till its off.

26. Shy type?
Haha... nice... but not too shy!

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Half half...

28. Active or passive?
ACTIVE please!

29. Tight or bomb?
I am confuse

30. Singer or dancer?
Singer! Dancer??? Not too good. I will look like a duck when we dance. I don't want to look like a DUCK!

31. Stunner?
Of course!


32. Hiphop?
NO!


33. Earrings?
NO! Kinda turn me off!

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
Not too much please...


35. Dimples?
Not really my type...

36. Bookworm?
Read with me! But not all the time!


37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Sometimes... (because i am too lazy to reply if he do it all the time)

38. Playful?
Hmm.... i wonder...

39. Flirt?
With me or others???

40. Poem writer?
NO! Its kinda annoying if he do it all the time!


41. Serious?
Not all the time...

42. Campus crush?
I don't have any... Is high school ok??

43. Painter?
Drawer???

44. Religious?
HELP ME! Not too into it please....!!!!


45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Not all the time... know his limits...

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Computer games but not geek!


47. Speaks 20 languages?
Maybe 10...


48. Loyal or faithful?
Faithful... It sounds better.... (both have the same meaning!)

49. good kisser
If he is not then we shall work on that!


50. loves children??
Not too overly crazy over them please!

I am too bored... So i did the test the minute i finish reading it in your blog...
*Ming Ann
*Ming Ming
*Angela
*David
*Ivan
*Phoebe
*Michael
*CANON!

....!!!!....!!!!

Ever feel like the you are on top of the world at 1 second... Then the next, your mum just have to ruin it by yelling at you after your friends of boyfriend walk out the door???

I can't find 1 day in my life that i could happily go out the whole day and enjoy, when i am home, my mum would just be normal and treat me good. She some how have to go crazy about something. Sometimes, the things she got mad about makes no sense at all!

ARrrrRRRggggGGGGG!!!!!!! Ok ok... i should stop trashing and complaining about my mum. Please proceed to the next post...