Karma/Anger/Misunderstood

It is without doubt that I have made mistakes in my pass. Some that I am ashamed of. I am willing to accept whatever God has plan for me. Although I am not going to lie that it is painful to go through.

1. I have been true to you as I can possibly be. If you think that I am lying, then there nothing else left for me to hold on to. Even if it is the truth. I am not standing any ground or even trying to argue with anyone. Truth is, I have nothing to do with it. If rumors said otherwise, then so be it. I no longer has strength to fight.

2. You put me there on a silver platter, serving me up for them to be played. I am not angry at them because I know him and the rest, to be honest, I don't care. But you! You out of all should know better. Don't worry, I am angry at myself too. For believing in imagination!

Did I do it wrong again? Cuz it feels like it. I am tired.

Where do I go when I wanna write a bunch of crap which I do not wish others would see...??? No where but here.

I don't know what exactly I am suppose to do. I did not ask for anything. I don't need all those things! Why can't I just have a normal relationship?!