About me

I read my "About Me" column yesterday... First sentence in my mind, "dafuq?!" How?! Why?! What?! WHY?!?!?! It is an embarrassment just by reading it. Did I really sound that cina-fied last time? (Actually I do not really need to ask that question...)

Changing it soon... 1 word. Embarrassment!

20 years 4 months and 23 days

I remember the time when I have wished for weird unpredictable future. Well, if you wait long enough, Lord has a way of giving them to you. I had a long chat with my close friend last night about.....life. Cliche I know but like Marshall said (from HIMYM) "Cliche is cliche for a reason. It is comforting..." And well, IT IS COMFORTING. I realised I do not have anything or should I say, I SHOULD not have anything to complain about my life. It has few a wonderful, fulfilling and adventurous 20 years 4 months and 23 days of pure awesomeness memories! Sure. I have done some pretty stupid things and regretful at times. But all and all, it was one hell of an experience! There are so many things that I want to say to so many people. So many untold stories. Unexplained misunderstandings. Unshared secrets. All because of one label. The label of "mistakes". Yes, I do dwell. I dwell because sometimes when you are all alone in your room staring at you computer on the "New Feed" page of Facebook, it just hit you right in the face. What and why are they your friends on Facebook? You do not even talk to each other. When you do, half of the time they were not even thinking about talking to you. They just thought it would be awkward if they don't. Then again, there's no point to dwelling. That's what I would tell myself when I start dwelling... How pathetic?! (This oh-so-psychotic-ways-to-live-life) (Oh Christine! Where are you going with this?) Coming back to what I really wanted to blog about in the 1st place before I went side track about my dwelling and pathetic mind. Ok, where was I? Oh yea, weird unpredictable future and God. Well, I got what I wished for. Even got the one I wished for last year! About me taking a break, not having to be thinking and sorting things out in the relationship any more. Living it now. Not as awesome as I have pictured it. But well it is still pretty awesome, just not as awesome. Your mind will keep creating illusion of problems about your life that are full of crap! That's the downside of having to get what you have always wanted. You suddenly stop doing what you have always done. It was fun at first, but then it will slowly get to you. Giving you a small panic in you mind that there is a hole that you need to fill. That hole is fake! You are just so not used to being taken care of. Till now, I have totally lost my point and have no idea what I wanted to write. Some other time then.