For a week, i have been thinking about what a loser i am. Losing to a 16 year old girl. Its killing me... Sobbing and torturing myself every minutes with the thought of what that has happen... Now that things has gone better. I start to think more clearly. Thinking it another way... I have never lost neither i have ever win... I just simply move on with my life... Eventhough we are still friends... I dont know how i would keep this up. What i know is that i have learn 2 be brave enough to face whatever that will be waiting for me... Because i believe the 5 years i spend in high school have thought a lot of things...
He is now with another girl... I was angry at first.. But i dont know why after talking to the girl i am not angry anymore... I actually feel kinda good.... I dont feel that sad and grumpy anymore.... She is sweet i think... I dont really get to know her. Eventhough i hope i have the chance to...but i dont know the reason to that...
All i can feel and tell everyone around me now, is that i m so numb towards all the feelings around me. That i just want to stop at a moment and rest..... Well i hope he would treat her better this time and dont cheat on her again... For some reason, i dont feel that she deserve it...
I think i still like him but as the same way as i like one of my ex.... I noe it very clearly that they have just simply left a mark there in my heart. And thatz all i need to know. I wont and i will not ask for more...
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