The End of "Confused"

I am not blaming anyone. I am those people that got no idea what she did that makes people angry. (unless if its obvious) If you say i started all this then i will end it now.... Sorry my emotion just got on to me at that moment..... Not acting innocent. There is nothing innocent about me. And i am very clear about that. Sorry for all the trouble....

As promise and more....

This is the result after.... Ok ok....it might not be the same day. But at least u can see him "bald".

This is before we went in the salon.....

As promise pictures taken from A'Famosa.... Sorry it took so long..... Very lazy lately....
And some are just random..... Showing people how "bald" is David now.....

Just updating

I have just receive the offer letter from MMU the other day.... I feel so suck-ish... I applied for foundation but i guess i am just to stupid so they put me down to diploma... I really dont want to go for diploma.... It make me feel so unqualified for foundation.... But i talk to a friend today and he encourage me to go for diploma..... I can still work my way up from there.... Just have to be more hardworking.... Well then, thanks to him... I have decided that i will stick to diploma.... I am fortunate enough to have a chance to study. So i should not be so picky.... I mean it is my own fault for getting such horrible result.... I have myself to blame for everything....

David leave for NS again today. After few days of MC from NS due to his gastric..... Really want him to be back and dont have to go again.... But instead i just pray hard that he will be fine and stay healthy. Thats all that matter.... I will wait.... It is only 2 months and a few weeks left.... (Oi! I sound so pathetic!) Time will go fast.... Nothing to worry about..... He will be back and this time i hope (please GOD!!! Let us finish that level) we can finish HOTD4.... We are always so close..... Err.....hate it!

Confused 3

I am not angry and i do care even if any of you guys dont. I dont have to have a life because i am living in one now and i love it.... I am not saying i want you to come up to me and say "Hi! I miss you so much!!!" I dont expect anything from you now... I just wish that one day if after many years and i meet you on the street, i just dont wish we look like we dont know each other. Thats all. I know you dont care. In fact, you dont have to.... I am not even angry that you blame everything on me or say i started everything. If you like it better that i am invisible then so be it.... If it makes you guys happy then it is fine by me...

P.S. I am not trying to pretend to be nice here. Whether you believe or not. I am just saying whatever i really felt....

11/03/2009 Wednesday

I am so broke.... Thought of staying home with him... Wash the car, go swimming and maybe to the mall for a walk... Window shopping... Woken up at 6:13 a.m by his call... Shockingly telling me that he is outside my house.... Went for a walk around my taman with him... Then fetch my cousin (June) to school at 7 a.m. Went for breakfast after that... Came home.... So boring.... So wanna go swimming.... Went all the way to Tiara Resort but the workers there say it only open at 1 p.m... So sad... SOBZ.... It was only 11:30 a.m that time.... Went back home to my taman to swim.... Worse!!! Open only at 3:30 p.m. Sobbing and cursing all the way back home.... At 12:30 p.m., I got so crazy and just start packing my stuff and tell him "Lets go Water World!" And surprisingly he answer back "Ok, why not??" Funny thing about all this is that both of us got no idea how to get there.... Haha.... Thank god we bought a map that day.... Get in the car and start searching for the roads.... At 1.15 p.m., we reach and bought the ticket for RM35. (So freaking expensive for a place that dirty and crappy) But over all it is ok.... (i guess) Oh ya, the ticket include a set lunch... Ok, lets not talk about what i ate.... I will post the picture as soon as possible...

Came back home at 5:30 p.m. And the rest of the day is pretty much being ruin by both of our parents..... Sigh*

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There is so many things i wanna say to you guys... My feeling now, i just wanna yell out loud. BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But thats not really what i want to say. I really wish i can be lock up 1 day in a room with you... I dont even mind if in the beginning you wanna yell at me... I just wanna talk to you and make you understand what i really meant to say... I am not angry or hate you girls even if i am invisible or a bitch to you girls... What i wrote in my blog is the truth... I am not lying... There might be a lot of misunderstanding in all this crap..... 1 very important thing tat i wanna say is about AGLN. I am very speechless because someone just came to me 1 day and tells me that she dislike me. My first reaction was "????HUH???? What i did???".

P.S I seriously do not know why you hate me.... SOBZ.....

Me = xxx????

Very confused... I guess i am being really stupid asking her who is it... But i really dont know at that moment.... I cant put my hand on the delete button to delete those post.... To me, those are my stories....my past... It does not matter to me whether it is sad, happy or anything else... What matter is, it is my past and i would really want it to be a part of me now... Because my past have made me who i am now.... I might not be prefect. I might have people that dislike me... But whatever it is, i love who i am now.... I am learning everyday from everything i did in my past... So i really cant find a way to delete them... I am really sorry my mei mei.... I know you would think i am really selfish for hurting you.... But it has been a choice that i have made from the day i start accepting myself... I love and care for you very very much.... But i am sorry about the choice that i have made.....