UNDER PROBATION!

Have you ever tried waking up staring at your computer screen and couldn't believe what you are looking at and wondering should you go hang yourself on the spot or just go back to sleep? In my case, I was leading to the sleeping zone but I did not manage to put my head back down to my pillow due to increasing death thoughts in my mind. So physically I was heading to sleep but mentally I was secretly hoping for death.

My result is bad.... REAL BAD! It is so bad that I am under probation. (the price I have to pay for enjoying in Genting) Now I have to drop two subject out of the 6 I am suppose to be taking this trimester. Will I end up graduating later than the rest of my classmates??? (not including Joyesh ~i hope) This SUCK! Worst of all is that I have no 1 to blame but myself! WHY!!!???? Why am I so dumb????!!!

Entering afternoon did not make my day better. I have to sit through Financial Accounting class under serious heat. There is no air-condition and there is only 1 stupid stand fan that doesn't turn. Thank goodness it ended in an hour. Went to SPB trying to bump into David but unsuccessful. Since I am currently out of credit, I couldn't contact him. I have to get my credit, and to students of MMU, they know that the only place to get credit in MMU is at Plaza Siswa using that stupid Kodak machine. (you will know why I call it stupid soon) It has always been a stupid machine but today it might just reach it maximum point of stupidity. We are suppose to get a receipt after we put in the money and done all the other procedures. For me today, I did not get mine! Why am I so mad over a receipt is because the top-up code is suppose to be on that receipt! Then I kind of trick a guy in buying a top-up without telling him my story. I know I shouldn't have done that but I can't help it. I was hot and sweating and wondering whether is there class or not later and my result and under probation. To be short, I was under tremendous stress! So there you go, I have cause that guy a RM 10 top-up. Although I have to say I don't feel guilty at all.