Have you ever tried waking up staring at your computer screen and couldn't believe what you are looking at and wondering should you go hang yourself on the spot or just go back to sleep? In my case, I was leading to the sleeping zone but I did not manage to put my head back down to my pillow due to increasing death thoughts in my mind. So physically I was heading to sleep but mentally I was secretly hoping for death.
My result is bad.... REAL BAD! It is so bad that I am under probation. (the price I have to pay for enjoying in Genting) Now I have to drop two subject out of the 6 I am suppose to be taking this trimester. Will I end up graduating later than the rest of my classmates??? (not including Joyesh ~i hope) This SUCK! Worst of all is that I have no 1 to blame but myself! WHY!!!???? Why am I so dumb????!!!
Entering afternoon did not make my day better. I have to sit through Financial Accounting class under serious heat. There is no air-condition and there is only 1 stupid stand fan that doesn't turn. Thank goodness it ended in an hour. Went to SPB trying to bump into David but unsuccessful. Since I am currently out of credit, I couldn't contact him. I have to get my credit, and to students of MMU, they know that the only place to get credit in MMU is at Plaza Siswa using that stupid Kodak machine. (you will know why I call it stupid soon) It has always been a stupid machine but today it might just reach it maximum point of stupidity. We are suppose to get a receipt after we put in the money and done all the other procedures. For me today, I did not get mine! Why am I so mad over a receipt is because the top-up code is suppose to be on that receipt! Then I kind of trick a guy in buying a top-up without telling him my story. I know I shouldn't have done that but I can't help it. I was hot and sweating and wondering whether is there class or not later and my result and under probation. To be short, I was under tremendous stress! So there you go, I have cause that guy a RM 10 top-up. Although I have to say I don't feel guilty at all.
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Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, August 23, 2009
So sick and tired!
Everyone, a promise is a promise! Try your very best to keep it! Don't tell me shit like, a promise is meant to be broken! If its meant to be broken, then why made it in the first place.
If you care about someone, you would go through length to find out about her. Even when she doesn't answer your call or reply your messages. You would go Facebook to check on her status, you would go her blog to find out about her life. And not just complain about the fact the she leaves you! FUCK YOU! Suck it up would you! Stop saying you know nothing, when people is practically showing you everything you need to know! Just admit the fact that you are just so FUCKING LAZY to go and find out!
If you care about someone, you would go through length to find out about her. Even when she doesn't answer your call or reply your messages. You would go Facebook to check on her status, you would go her blog to find out about her life. And not just complain about the fact the she leaves you! FUCK YOU! Suck it up would you! Stop saying you know nothing, when people is practically showing you everything you need to know! Just admit the fact that you are just so FUCKING LAZY to go and find out!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
ZOO day trip with JOYESH!
Reach the fun part.... Hehehe... After the registration in the morning i have hour away before i have to be back there again. So, i went to the ZOO with JOYESH! I don't know how that happen and why it happen. We just went there. He is fascinated by the tigers.... Haiz... I should have take those pictures of him. We talk on the way too. I mean we still go crazy at each other but this time its kinda better though. I mean he is sort of, kinda, can can gentlemen... I feel weird saying that. Oh well, there is always a first time. He is a good guy. Send him to church after zoo. I suddenly have the urge to follow him in. I don't know why again. So don't ask. But suddenly i saw that picture in my mind (not really a picture, i have never seen that man before, but still....), it makes me so grumpy. It won't make any difference anyway if i go in. It would just make other people or certain people more angry. So i decided to go home and sleep...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
I doubt myself....
He doubt me... I understand that. I doubt myself too. But i don't want to be doubt. Somehow i guess that won't happen. I would be doubt by him or others... Because of what i have done in my pass.... I don't know how to face him now. I am not answering his calls. I miss him very much. But i don't wanna talk to him. I miss his voice and hugs terribly but i don't wanna see him. There is a part in me that is so dominant of wanting to make him not doubt me anymore.... I want to prove to him. I am not to be doubt anymore. I don't want to see him. I want him to see me. To see what i am doing. To see what i am now, what i am going to be.... I don't want him to doubt me......
Friday, April 24, 2009
Some one get me into this..... And i am stupid enough to follow....
1. The person that tagged you is:
TOH MING ANN!!!!!!
2. Your relationship with him is:
a very very good friend
3. Your first impression of him is:
ermmm.... sorry... i kinda thought he don't like girls
4. The most memorable moments with him:
talking wif him for almost 4 hours during the midnight (due to lack of sleep the next day, both of us look like zombie) (but thats normal for him)
5. The most memorable thing he has said to you is:
"It does not matter what you have done or doing, you will always be my friend and a part of me."
6. If he becomes your lover, you will:
ermm... i don't know... i don't get the question... What does it mean by "you will????"
7. If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
his sarcasm towards people...
8. If he becomes your enemy, what would you do:
cry.... and eventually be the saddest person on earth...
9. If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
i have been an total idiot and done crap things....
10.The most desired thing you want to do for him now is:
get him settled down for further studies... but i know that is very impossible...
11. Your overall impression on him:
crazy friend.... wanna know more read one of my post dedicated to him... "For YOU!!!"
12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:
i can go crazy when i need to.... just let myself free...
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
i cared too much smetimes....
14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
errmm.... no one... i love myself.... i wanna be myself!
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
you guys are awesome but unfortunately stupid at the same time.... because how could you guys ever care and like a girl like me!!!!????? But anyhow... you guys are still the best and i love you all!!!!!
16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1. david teo (he is in ns, but whatever)
2. angela ong (i wonder what is her reaction to see-ing this???)
3. joyesh (i know if he have a blog, he will be doing this, then call me idiot)
4. miko (my cousin)
5. ming ming (just for fun)
6. amanda (haha she don't have a blog either)
7. ivan (i am just dreaming about this)
8. johnathan teo (i am dreaming about this too)
9. jason tan (my ex...)
10. wee sheng (my another ex.....)
17. Who is 6 having a relationship with:
he is not in here.... but no 3 is her ex...
18. is 9 a male or female:
male.... a cute 1 too....
19. If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing
it might...i don't mind them being gay... but they wont be able to stand each other....
20. What is 2 studying at the moment:
i got no idea.... havent contact her for a very very long time....
21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3:
yesterday if i am not wrong....
22. What kind of music does 8 like:
i am not sure.... actually i don't know... i think anything in a band and acoustic song with guitar....
23. Does 1 have any siblings:
yes.... is no 8.... his big brother....
24. Will you woo 3:
i don't know what does woo means....but i think i probably do it... unless if its something to do with relationship and touchin him.....
25. How about 7:
what does that mean????? Izzit woo????
26. Is 4 single:
erm...it's complicated....
27. What's the surname of 5:
tan.... this is a weird question...
28. What's the hobby of 5:
ermm....i think probably hanging out with her boyfriend.....(try asking no 10, is her boyfriend, maybe he knows....but i doubt it....)
29. Do 5 and 9 get along well:
they don't know each other.....
30. Where is 2 studying at:
isn't this question same with question no 20???? why ask again????
31. Say something casual about your eyes:
i have double eye lit.... (i think i said the right thing, if i don't..... whatever)
32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5?
err....she is my sister...... (ok, not blood related)
33. Where does 9 live:
klebang, melaka.....
34. What colours does 4 like:
i think white..... and red....
35. Are 5 and 1 good friends
nope..... they are friends i guess but not good friends....
36. Does 7 like 2:
haha.... i don't have answer to that... either way of answering to it i will still get my butt kick.... so i don't know....
37. How did you get to know 2:
same school, same class, same tuition......
38. Does 1 have any pets:
yup.... 3 cats.... but if we ever get married 1 day.... i am getting a dog!
39. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world:
OMG!!!!!! haha.... maybe not to me.... he is still good looking though.... after all he is my ex....
This is a very lame but soothing way to relax...... Still it is STUPID!!!!!
TOH MING ANN!!!!!!
2. Your relationship with him is:
a very very good friend
3. Your first impression of him is:
ermmm.... sorry... i kinda thought he don't like girls
4. The most memorable moments with him:
talking wif him for almost 4 hours during the midnight (due to lack of sleep the next day, both of us look like zombie) (but thats normal for him)
5. The most memorable thing he has said to you is:
"It does not matter what you have done or doing, you will always be my friend and a part of me."
6. If he becomes your lover, you will:
ermm... i don't know... i don't get the question... What does it mean by "you will????"
7. If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
his sarcasm towards people...
8. If he becomes your enemy, what would you do:
cry.... and eventually be the saddest person on earth...
9. If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
i have been an total idiot and done crap things....
10.The most desired thing you want to do for him now is:
get him settled down for further studies... but i know that is very impossible...
11. Your overall impression on him:
crazy friend.... wanna know more read one of my post dedicated to him... "For YOU!!!"
12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:
i can go crazy when i need to.... just let myself free...
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
i cared too much smetimes....
14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
errmm.... no one... i love myself.... i wanna be myself!
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
you guys are awesome but unfortunately stupid at the same time.... because how could you guys ever care and like a girl like me!!!!????? But anyhow... you guys are still the best and i love you all!!!!!
16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1. david teo (he is in ns, but whatever)
2. angela ong (i wonder what is her reaction to see-ing this???)
3. joyesh (i know if he have a blog, he will be doing this, then call me idiot)
4. miko (my cousin)
5. ming ming (just for fun)
6. amanda (haha she don't have a blog either)
7. ivan (i am just dreaming about this)
8. johnathan teo (i am dreaming about this too)
9. jason tan (my ex...)
10. wee sheng (my another ex.....)
17. Who is 6 having a relationship with:
he is not in here.... but no 3 is her ex...
18. is 9 a male or female:
male.... a cute 1 too....
19. If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing
it might...i don't mind them being gay... but they wont be able to stand each other....
20. What is 2 studying at the moment:
i got no idea.... havent contact her for a very very long time....
21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3:
yesterday if i am not wrong....
22. What kind of music does 8 like:
i am not sure.... actually i don't know... i think anything in a band and acoustic song with guitar....
23. Does 1 have any siblings:
yes.... is no 8.... his big brother....
24. Will you woo 3:
i don't know what does woo means....but i think i probably do it... unless if its something to do with relationship and touchin him.....
25. How about 7:
what does that mean????? Izzit woo????
26. Is 4 single:
erm...it's complicated....
27. What's the surname of 5:
tan.... this is a weird question...
28. What's the hobby of 5:
ermm....i think probably hanging out with her boyfriend.....(try asking no 10, is her boyfriend, maybe he knows....but i doubt it....)
29. Do 5 and 9 get along well:
they don't know each other.....
30. Where is 2 studying at:
isn't this question same with question no 20???? why ask again????
31. Say something casual about your eyes:
i have double eye lit.... (i think i said the right thing, if i don't..... whatever)
32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5?
err....she is my sister...... (ok, not blood related)
33. Where does 9 live:
klebang, melaka.....
34. What colours does 4 like:
i think white..... and red....
35. Are 5 and 1 good friends
nope..... they are friends i guess but not good friends....
36. Does 7 like 2:
haha.... i don't have answer to that... either way of answering to it i will still get my butt kick.... so i don't know....
37. How did you get to know 2:
same school, same class, same tuition......
38. Does 1 have any pets:
yup.... 3 cats.... but if we ever get married 1 day.... i am getting a dog!
39. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world:
OMG!!!!!! haha.... maybe not to me.... he is still good looking though.... after all he is my ex....
This is a very lame but soothing way to relax...... Still it is STUPID!!!!!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Surprises from my sis....
I have never thought that i mean so much to her.... I have always thought that F was always first in her mind.... Until today..... I have just read her blog... It surprise me a lot... I have always been and still am always the first 1.... And that i am that important to her... I dont remember what i have done to deserve that... I have always try my best to be there but she never seem to want it.... When she ran away from home, i beg my mum to let her stay at my house even for a night... But she always refuse my help....
Now i wonder... How many people some more that is out there that i mean so much to???? That i have never know.... Or am i just dreaming... I am not important at all to anyone...
Now i wonder... How many people some more that is out there that i mean so much to???? That i have never know.... Or am i just dreaming... I am not important at all to anyone...
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