Monday bliss...

Its Monday! I don't know why no matter how I try to make Monday sound nice and cheerful, it will never be... I feel sorry for Monday... Anyway, I had fun today/night. Its been long since the last time I went out with my boyfriend. Miss him lots! Finally got my hand on Domo!

P.S. At last after a very long wait (I am lying), I finally got to meet FUR-BALL! I hope I could get a nice picture of him soon.... Will upload it ASAP!

Budak sesat kat bandar besar _ Part 1

If I am a writer, I would write down every emotion, words can describe. But I am not a writer, so I could only use simple words and words that I have learn all my life till now...

Experiences are earn with the pay back of sweat, tears, fear, happiness, hurt and all the other bombastic words Magdeline can put in my mind. So as for now (according to my mum), I am in KL to learn my way, and my mum have assign Mag as her assistant to supervise me in my quest through KL for this 3 days. Trying to reach KL is already a challenge. Try keeping your pee in you for 1 and a half hour, and run down from the bus into Puduraya's toilet. It was quite an experience even though it is not the first time. Meanwhile, Mag have the abilities to manipulate my mind, making me feel and think like I am a lost fly in a big city. Trust me, it is not a nice feeling!

Journey to Mag's house is rather soothing, even though we have to go through jam-pack LRT + rushing in between LRT inter-change trying to catch the next tren + standing while trying so hard to keep the bag in my hand and finally, sitting in a very very HOT taxi. Mag's house was not as bad as I have in mind. Though something I saw in her room might scar me for life. (it have something to do with her brother, but MOVING ON) Before I realise that Mag was screaming at the top of her lungs due to the mess in her room (cause by her brother again), hunger is getting to me. I could hear my stomach grumble like a speaker blowing in my ears.

The first thing that come on my mind when the number 88 appear is usually superstitious chinese man walking in my mind. So I have never really like the number, because for me its kind of stupid. Today, number 88 have finally proof itself useful by transporting me to Ikea for my meatballs! I have lots of meatballs, lots of them. But because Mag have trick me into buying 10 meatballs instead of 5. Which cause a huge catastrophe to happen, I COULDN'T FINISH MY MEATBALLS! I shall and will hold the grudge on Mag for this for as long as meatballs exist.

Apparently calling Feliz to come to the meatballs rescue was a mistake. She just end up chasing us to pack those meatballs up because she have rush back to her mum's office before the jam in the so called "big apple" of Malaysia begin. Don't worry. We did make it back on time. Oh, almost forgot, Feliz brought a poodle (puppy) along with her when she was "coming to the rescue". I have to say, the puppy is really obedient. She can just snuggle up to any of our thighs and just sit there looking around. She don't even bark much. I think I am falling in love with her... Looking forward for her company tonight during our sleepover.

As for night plans, well its simple, 1 word, EUPHORIA! That story shall be in the next post... Stay tuned! ^_^

January Holidays Plan!

When out tonight with Mag... Both of us are so lifeless! Haha! She is too bored staying at home everyday with no internet, I am too bored staying at home everyday too but I have internet. Anyhow, I am still bored. Nothing else to do. Well I'm just too lazy to do anything that involve moving more than my fingers. I sound SO LAZY!

I force her to get a drink at Starbucks today. I want the 2010 planner so badly. For what? I don't know. I just never had it before. So I want it! I got it, thanks to my mum for yesterday's hot chocolate and Mag for buying a drink today. We sat at MP Starbucks for an hour talking about all kinds of things. Well, most of it are kind of kinky. I mean it is normal when you put me and Mag together. That is usual the result.

For what I have done for these few days, well, I decided to have a vacation with the girls! Me, Mag and Feliz! I wanted to go Singapore with Mag at first, but money issue came up and miss Maggie does not have a passport... Moving on. Then I suggested Penang, which we both agree on too. Here comes the but. BUT, I realise with my mum's sudden questioning, that my holidays end on the 18th. So that would mean no time to plan. How sad right?

Not to worry. I came up with the last resort. Vacation De Le Damansara! Yup! Going up to KL this Thursday! With Mag of course, coming back with her too. (please pray for me anyone who reads this, pray that she won't bail on me last minute) We, include me, Mag and Feliz, are spending hopefully two nights at Mag's house in Kota Damansara! I am not putting too much hope in it. Every time I put too much hope everything usually came down crashing.

I love how the plan is so random. Out of the blues. LOVE IT!

P.S. Dave doesn't know about this. I don't want his brother or his parents or worst HIM, thinks that I go up there for him. That, I am clingy. I wasn't thinking about him at all when I plan this. I dare to post this up is because he never reads my blog. Advantages! Hehe! So please.... Shh....

Mistakes = Life lesson...

This post is basically inspired by a friend of mine (Michael Niemeyer) and a famous saying :~

Oscar Wilde: "Very few people realize until it is too late that their mistakes are the only things they don't regret"

I can't agree enough about the meaning and how true this passage is. We made mistakes a long our life. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it bring us trouble, but mistakes that we do are the lesson that teaches us how to be a more better person. We always tend to think that mistakes are bad... But if you don't go through all those mistakes, would you know what is the right thing to do? Well, non of you need me to tell you all these. You guys might even know it better than me. So stand up tall the next time people laugh at you when you did something wrong. Because deep down you know that you have learn a great lesson today and you would know how to do better next time!

25 / May / 2009

With everything going on in our relationship... He stills know how to make me smile whole day long.... I have never gotten flowers from anyone on just a normal day. I mean no one will just show up in front of me and say ''Hey, you were really down yesterday so i thought this might cheer you up a little.'' and follow by the flowers in his hands.

He was throwing stones at my window this morning while i am still asleep like a pig. And i thought it was some stupid birds making weird noises again. So i open up the curtains and look out the window. OMG! There he was looking up at me! The first thing that came to my mind was ''is my hair messy????''. Then i ran downstairs to get him. Haha... And there he was standing in front of my door with a smile on his face. (I am still sleepy) Suddenly, he gave those flowers to me. (although i am not much of a flowers fan but i am still a girl, i still like my boyfriend buying me flowers) Those flowers really wake me up! Hehe... Then we just spend almost 5 hours in my room watching Chuck, laughing, cuddling, eating and talking about our problems. Love you lots D3AR! MXX!!!

''I love you, Goodbye dear''

I just read your old post. I don't know why i suddenly have the a feeling to look back at us. I guess you are right. I didn't really give myself a chance to understand you. Maybe it is because i have seen the old you and it is kinda hard for me to believe and accept the new you. To be honest, i am not even sure about YOU. Going through everything made me realise why you hate me so much now. It is more easy to see now. More clearly than last time. When both of us have many things going on in our lives.

I am very happy for you. You found someone that understands you and loves you. From the way she describe how much you mean to her in her blog. It is clear that she loves you lots. Vice verse. I wish you all the best in the future. And lastly, THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES!

Life so far....

I wonder how is my life soon.... Haha what a weird question. Well Ann has started his form 6. In orientation but still is considered starting or started. Feliz with her A-levels (i think)(if that is what she is really doing). I am still home alone everyday. Sitting in front of my computer and just stare at it sometimes. Dave is still in NS. It will take another 3 more weeks till he is finally free. And when he is back, i am starting my class already.

It sucks being at home everyday. Knowing that you don't have a friend to go out with. Well in my case, i don't have any friends. Just me all alone by myself. As usual. Dave ask me to make more friends when my class starts. I am kinda having negative thoughts about it. I mean everything will just probably end up people hating me or not liking me. I guess i am just scared. Scared of having everything and losing it again like in high school. I have to keep telling myself that i am not in high school anymore. But the past still haunts me. That i can't deny.

It got me thinking that all the negative vibe have something to do with his ex-girlfriend. I was randomly checking all my pictures in facebook. Tagging those that i miss out. I found a picture of her, so i tag her. The next thing i get is a comment on my wall calling me an idiot and she asking me to stay off and it is her last warning to me. It hurts! Well technically i was furious. I mean i did nothing wrong. Maybe i was wrong for asking him to go with her and give it a try last time. (i should not have given that advice) Well as for now i am still furious. I don't deserve that!

P.S Yes, AGL, i was really surprise you did the tagging thing. LOL... I am sorry for tagging you to such thing that is just plain wasting your time.....

Weekend sleep over at Mag's house

THE slumber party is over..... I won't call it a slumber party though. Its more of a sleep over. Everything didn't went according to plan except the beach thing. Love that part! With the moon and sea breeze and Dave there... It is so prefect!

Desmond turn out to be really cool..... He don't talk much but he is kinda fun to hang around with. As usual, me and Mag are constantly crazy. Laughing for no specific reason. Like two lunatic. Haha!!! LOVE HER LOTZ!!!!! The cooking was fun. I went girly when it comes to cooking. Running away for the pan. As far as possible. Finally, Mag take over. Haiz.... pai sheh.... Des's squid was awesome.... Mag keep eating. Hide beside her and keep eating. Is her plan. I knew it! She don't want let me eat! SOBZ.... Her evil plan! The chicken soup was extremely salty! It is over my limit! Even i think it is salty.

Dave is so sick... He is burning when i went and see him. Gave him all the medicine but end up at night he eats McDonald with us. And he quote ''It is because lack of McDonald that make me sick. I should eat more! By tomorrow i am sure to be healthy''. I don't know how it happen. But the next day he is really fine. Fever is gone. It is so weird....... I wonder will that work for me.....?????

Over all it was fun and great... There is only two things that suck! 1st is at night. Can't sleep for 2 whole night!!!! 2nd is something very sensitive..... I rather not say... Only people there with me would know. Mag would be the most understanding 1. Because even she can't stand it.... LOLZ.....

Slumber Party!

Mother's Day is coming.... I haven't got a clue of what i wanna get for my mom. I am super dead! Dave is another problem. He haven't even thought of Mother's Day yet. I am so screwed!

So...slumber party this weekend at Mag's house. Wow! It is going to be great. I mean Mag, Des, me, Dave, Phoebe and Ivan is going to be there. Is going to be so fun. Until i got a call from Mag telling me that her friend feel awkward about me being there. That hurts! Why does all this things always happen??? And Ivan don't even like the idea that i am around. More hurt! Ouch! Maybe i should not go... But i know that will just piss Mag off more. She is already piss like crap now. I don't wanna make things worse. I just hope things would turn out fine.... If only i could do something to make it better. Love you Maggie! Mxx!!!!

For YOU!

I have a friend. We know each other through my ex-boyfriend. He is a guy. We don't really speak to each other in the beginning. I mean my ex is kinda the...... guy..... Well you know what i mean. So i broke-up with my ex, ok wait, he broke-up with me and then me and this guy started to bond. We became great friend. He is very very smart. I am serious. Very smart. He is a little bit pathetic sometimes. Other than that, he has been a great friend. He would accompany me at night when i cant sleep or just for some stupid reasons. He can get mad just because i said sorry too many times. I did mistake. I should say sorry. But he would still scold me for it. He would stay up just to make sure i sleep early even if he have to work morning tomorrow. He listen to all my complains about who know what stupid things i am saying. And he never once stop me from doing that. When i am with my boyfriend, i don't really have time to sms or reply him. But he never once get mad on me. Maybe he is angry, he just never shows it. Anyway, me and my boyfriend is very glad that we have him as our friend.

I know you would be reading. And if you are, wait i mean you would. Then you should know that you are important. To me. You are great friend, a silly guy with a crazily crafted mind, and i would never want to lose you.

The End of "Confused"

I am not blaming anyone. I am those people that got no idea what she did that makes people angry. (unless if its obvious) If you say i started all this then i will end it now.... Sorry my emotion just got on to me at that moment..... Not acting innocent. There is nothing innocent about me. And i am very clear about that. Sorry for all the trouble....

11/03/2009 Wednesday

I am so broke.... Thought of staying home with him... Wash the car, go swimming and maybe to the mall for a walk... Window shopping... Woken up at 6:13 a.m by his call... Shockingly telling me that he is outside my house.... Went for a walk around my taman with him... Then fetch my cousin (June) to school at 7 a.m. Went for breakfast after that... Came home.... So boring.... So wanna go swimming.... Went all the way to Tiara Resort but the workers there say it only open at 1 p.m... So sad... SOBZ.... It was only 11:30 a.m that time.... Went back home to my taman to swim.... Worse!!! Open only at 3:30 p.m. Sobbing and cursing all the way back home.... At 12:30 p.m., I got so crazy and just start packing my stuff and tell him "Lets go Water World!" And surprisingly he answer back "Ok, why not??" Funny thing about all this is that both of us got no idea how to get there.... Haha.... Thank god we bought a map that day.... Get in the car and start searching for the roads.... At 1.15 p.m., we reach and bought the ticket for RM35. (So freaking expensive for a place that dirty and crappy) But over all it is ok.... (i guess) Oh ya, the ticket include a set lunch... Ok, lets not talk about what i ate.... I will post the picture as soon as possible...

Came back home at 5:30 p.m. And the rest of the day is pretty much being ruin by both of our parents..... Sigh*

Till next year's valentine.....

2009 Valentine past just like that.... It is absolutely not what i have expected it might be... To be honest it kinda just feel like any other outing day i always have.... Nothing special.... We were rushing all the time.... We did not even have a proper dinner.... I expected tonight to be simple and calm.... I dont even mind having instant noodle for valentine dinner... I thought we would be spending time chatting and watch a movie at your house... To me that would have been a great valentine already.... I dont mean i dont enjoy it... It just not what i have expected.... I wasnt that into rushing and driving everywhere because i was tired... I am sorry... But thanks for being there with me as a friend... Even after i have been such an a**.....

Weird.... but GOOD....

I finally did it.... What i should have done long ago.... Officially single and unavailable..... Want to spend some alone time with myself first.... Pamper myself and go crazy..... Enjoy every moment of fresh new air.... I havent been tasting this 'flavour' of air for a long time.... I am kinda new to it.... Like i just enter a whole different world... A world that is filled with total different 'flavour' kind of air.... It makes me curious everyday.... Wondering about what is going to happen....

I dont know how i can stand it... The temptation.... Is like my body dont respond to it anymore... Of course my brain still does... "It" keep asking me why am i restraining all the temptation around me... But i did not.. My body just walk away from it. Its weird i know. I cant explain it either... But i kind of like it though... I usually feel really stupid and bad after i get tempted... Now...things is getting weirder but better.... Its fun too.... Haha...

Mix emotions

You make everything sound like a fantasy... But i just cant find a reason to believe.... To believe thta your words are true.... You might as well give up... I got no idea how long this would last....

Chinese New Year is coming to an end to me.... Sob Sob... Start working on the 3rd day already.... So boring... But i finally get my pay!!!! HAHAHA!!!!! Not much but it feel so nice.... Hehe.... Bought my bro a jacket that i promise to get him like ages ago.... So so sorry bro.... I hope you like it though...

Another side of me is so sad... I m losing contact with my elder sis.... To be honest i get all the news about her from my younger sis n my bro.... She never tell me anything anymore.... (sorry guys i lied saying that i know everytime you guys trying to tell me something about her.... I just dont wanna sound pathetic...) Haiz.... I guess you guys probably would be laughing when reading this post.... I guess i earn it...

Woo Hoo!!!!!

Woo Hoo....!!!! 3 months to be as selfish as i can... So sick... After so long, always thinking about others feelings before mine... I know is bad but i am just so sick of caring so much already... As for my little sister, missing you so much... My big sister...love you always.... Both of you are the only people i would never ever in my life hurt....

Dont worry....not forgeting you la my dear....three of you are very important to me... Dont angry k.... Hehe...