For a person that doesn't really believe in God. I am definitely being bless with lots of things. I don't know whether i should be happy or sad or frustrated or ANYTHING. She mean a lot to me. I have already almost lost a sister. I don't wish to lose another. Both of them have walk me through lots of crappy and silly stuff in my life. But i don't really care about how crappy and silly those moments are. I just remember that they are there. No matter what. Laughing, crying, hugging and even cursing together. Who cares what people think right?? When you have the most important people in your life holding your hands and walk you through it.
My elder sister is a great person. A bit temper of course. (who doesn't have) But she is still great. She might not have all the experience in life. And might not always know what to advice me when i come to her with the most weirdest and childish problem. But she is still there, just holding the phone and listen to me cry. Listen to me complain about my so-call-pathetic life. It just make me feel so stupid thinking back. Haha...
My little sister is a ....... CRAZY girl. Me and her have a more complicated relationship than me and my elder sister. We have been schoolmate since primary school. We are not really good friends then. Everything started at Form 3. She is not the most prefect sister. You might even have a huge headache talking to her sometimes. (she can eat your mind) Haha.... She might have also like some really unsuitable guys in the past. But that doesn't matter. No one is prefect. Not even me. I have made some really stupid mistake of mine too. The point is, she has been a really awesome sister to me. When i am sad, i call her, i will cry. But she don't give a damn. Nothing can make her stop saying silly things just to make me smile and laugh like hell. She would go at any length to make me not sane and just go crazy and remind me what my propose in life is. Live life to the fullest everyday.
Three of us have gone through many obstacle in our friendship. We sometimes get influence by what others says and we did something that hurt our friendship. A year ago, something very unpleasant happen. I am not blaming anyone for what that has happen.Because that would not do any good. The incident have shaken our friendship. And now it is partially broken. My elder sister is trying to find herself on her own. I respect that and i know we all have to go through that stage in our life somehow. My little sister, she is facing college. It is tough but i know she can hang in there. She will blend in. But that is also probably the most scariest thing i am facing right now. She will blend in. I don't want to say much. in case i offend anyone. I just wish history does not repeat the THIRD time....
P.S The comment really stunned me. It caught me off guard. I thought you know me. Out of all the people.....
4 comments:
omg.. wat is happen here??
apa ini?
wat happen to both of u??
u guys feel a broken friendship?
erm.. actually i don't.. i dun noe y.. is jz so weird..
may be cause i hav been out of u guys since f4..
n NOW, everyone is going their own way..
chris.. may be NOW u r staying at home n relax.. so ur mind makes u think to much n this silly things com up to u...
for me friends are not mean to be stick together all the time..
may be jz a message or a call can show that u r still concern on her/him..
n i noe both of u are still concern about me.. n i appreciate it.. really... from the bottom of my heart..
AND.. about that call.. can three of us jz forget about it...jz let it go...i made no call that nite.. n no one hurt me..
we'll jz like old time.. ok?
i noe even tough v are far apart.. but i'm jz like last time a ear to listen.. wat u nd to do is jz pick up ur ph n call me!!!
ok... i will shot was it pass through my mind...
1st of all u r luckier than me.. u got a close bro and 2 close sisters... i am quite jealous of u...
if u wan to say bout real close friend, i guess i have only 2... a girl which i know since childhood and a boy which sits beside me at class when i was at form 4 and 5...
but the girl is not allowed to spend some of her time coz of his bf... he jus bind him too much..
bout the boy and me, its like u and your sisters, chris..
we share our problems and we do talk bout social life sometimes... love and others too...
for me,quarrel is inevitable between close friends... sometimes quarrel will make a relationship stronger... i did had a bad incident with him...
he was so pressure from his prefect business and others things and i scolded him... he cried and run to one spot... i still can remember clearly... it was add math lesson and he is crying there... i was very gulity and i apologised to him next day
maybe u and i r different in thinking... i did treasure every friend i have whether i know them o they don know me... even some i did hate coz particular reason.. and ya, i somehow hate the guy u don like too... yet i still treat him as friend...
it jus me... i don wan to lose friends... i am anti-conflict person... i will avoid conflict if i can but sometimes i would jus explode...
friends r important... if u say its partially broken, why don u try to think a way to make from partially broken to a solid, unbreakable friendship ?
i know u can... watever u say to me bout her, she is still your closest sis u have... i am sure both of u can break the wall of misunderstanding between both of u...
The alone time at home is not messing with my mind. It juzt made me miss Dave more. Other than that, i can think prefectly fine. I am just afraid in losing her or you. Its not the same anymore. No matter how much we denied and pretend that nothing has happen, it will never be the same. Or should i say, YOU would never be the same anymore.
I am afraid. I am scared. Before both of you came in my life i am alone. Always alone. When both of you came in my life. You guys bring out the best and worse in me. I felt love and cared. It has never matter to me how far apart we are from each other. I could still feel you guys here.
Many things have changed. It might not matter that much to you guys anymore. But for me, this is my life. You guys and Dave is life. You guys are everything to me. We all know that we are drifting apart. Not obviously, but slowly.
I love both of you very very much. Just in case we really are drifting apart. I just want you guys to know that.
im sorry bout that comment .. its not i don't get ur meaning .. okay , maybe i got a lil off guard .. coz i din read thru ur point .. i skipped to conclusion ...
liz , again i say here , i noe that called really changed our life since then .. n yet i never thought how big it would affect our friendship .. its super big .. that now we can't be ourselve when we see each other .. it was super awkward that time when i went into ur car .. n i made as if it was all ntg .. but then i knew that thr were such strangeness in us .. n cold .. when i went into the lrt , i had a thousand thoughts in me ... up till today ,im still stupid .. wat if i didn't say it dat time ..
chris , u noe that no matter what i say , u both will still b the crazy bitches in my life .. where am i without u both ... u both were diff than others n that was the first time i really felt im lucky to have u both .. n yet the demon ate me out n let me fall into the pitfall of ruining our friendship .. twice ...
remember when people say , when ure away from the ones u love , u'll noe how much u love them n appreciate them .. i felt that .. to my mum , u , suprisingly dave n liz tho we're in the same city ... but we never meet more than once if it wasn't that coincidence ... i never felt more than dat .. i wanted to cry on my 2nd week of coll .. it was all so diff .. my frens were diff .. n i can't find a person that cud b so close with me .. that's when i noe i can't b apart from u both ... 3 .. including dave ...
things are getting weird n i dun noe how to explain it ... im looking forward to my trip bak to mlk so much .. honestly chris , u better prepare lotsa tissue for me .. as im typing this, im already at the stage of holding my tears ..
when can we ever be the same again?
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