D - Da - DaDa???????

I use to call my ex DaDa... Haha what a weird name but cute! Hehe.... I actually copy from a Singapore drama. I know it is weird and funny. Out of all the names and all the places to get a name. I choose a drama. But DaDa is nice. Meaning of the name : i got no idea.

Now i am trying to find a cute nickname for D! It would be kinda weird to call him D all the time and its not even cute or sweet. I call him bb or b most of the time, but that is so common. Almost every couple is calling their partner that. He call me hon and sweetheart... Its not really that common and its cute. So that's fine. But what else can i call him????

P.S. Don't ask me why am i so free to post this... I am just too free and i am use to writing things down to make me think better....

True Friends????

I went to class this morning and i sat at the fifth row. (if i am not wrong) I was waiting for my friend T and another guy friend. I was waiting for quite sometime and they haven't arrive yet, so i went to the toilet. When i came back, they was sitting in front. But i just ignore it. When the class is over they never even bother to say hi or bye when see me. They just walk pass me. At that point, i just sat there and wonder ''Does everyone in this world dislike me??? What did i do??? Am i unfriendly or rude???''. Questions was pouring like waterfall in my head.

After i sign the attendance list, i walk out knowing that i would be alone after this. Wondering around campus or going library to pretend like i am studying so that i don't look so pathetic. To my surprise, when i push the door, my group members from yesterdays class was there waiting for me! They told me the others have something to do...so they have to leave first. I was shocked! WOW! There is actually someone waiting for me! They even accompany me to make my student ID smart card. Then we when to breakfast together at Plaza Siswa where we meet up with others and walk to class after that.

P.S. I hope this last.... (I sound so PATHETIC) It was like that for the first few days with T but now i just seem to be like a very very common friend where she only come for help....

My first presentation!

THANK YOU guys SO much!!!! I am very sorry i don't know all my group members name. But you guys just made my day! I love my group! I hope i did not offend anyone when i ask you guys to do things just now. Is like i am ordering you guys around. Very very sorry. Overall, we did a GREAT job! My lecturer thinks it is a good idea!

Company name (aka group name) : DR3AM Management

Service that we provide : We are a management company which help corporations, companies and other organization to manage events or sell and promote a product.

Basically, for this project in Fundamental of Business....we create a piggy bank out of rubbish or waste product and we call it a "Moving Home". It is a piggy bank that we bring around to collect money for charity.

P.S. I have never in my life thought that i would be able to do it! To stand in front of 100 students and do a presentation! I was having cold sweat, trembling and FREAKING OUT! But I DID IT! Can anyone of you believe it??? I did it!!! Me... Christine Lee DID IT!!! I still find it unbelievable!

ZOO day trip with JOYESH!

Reach the fun part.... Hehehe... After the registration in the morning i have hour away before i have to be back there again. So, i went to the ZOO with JOYESH! I don't know how that happen and why it happen. We just went there. He is fascinated by the tigers.... Haiz... I should have take those pictures of him. We talk on the way too. I mean we still go crazy at each other but this time its kinda better though. I mean he is sort of, kinda, can can gentlemen... I feel weird saying that. Oh well, there is always a first time. He is a good guy. Send him to church after zoo. I suddenly have the urge to follow him in. I don't know why again. So don't ask. But suddenly i saw that picture in my mind (not really a picture, i have never seen that man before, but still....), it makes me so grumpy. It won't make any difference anyway if i go in. It would just make other people or certain people more angry. So i decided to go home and sleep...

After registration in MMU

Just reach home from MMU. To my surprise, i kinda like the whole thing.... Its fun! Lots of singing and monkey dances but entirely its FUN! When we reach at 3 p.m., we are being divided into different teams with different colours. I got green. Hehe GO GREEN! How awesome is that???!!! Soon Aik is in my group too. G4! There is about 10 groups in each team. (i guess) Then i found out (and i think), we are the only team that is having rehearsal for tomorrow opening ceremony. Speeches is something i am not looking forward to....

2.44 p.m. ~ Reach Joyesh's house. Waited for him in the car for 3 minutes. I got no idea what is taking him so long. We are already gonna be late....

2.51 p.m. ~ Reach MMU. Oooo ''scary''..... I ask Joyesh to take my water for me in his bag. Surprisingly again, he said yes. Then we walk in together to the main hall. Saw Yuvanesh, Sandip (i hope i spell right, if not then i am sorry), Renee, Shereen, Indhu, Shamin and Jace. (hmmm... i wonder where he is....)

3.12 p.m. ~ Move to the field. Being divided according to the sticker on our temporary ID card. Hear boring speeches and seniors trying to make us scream. (weird....) This is also where i receive the HORRID news.... We have to be at the field by 7 a.m. tomorrow. (KILL ME!!!!)

3.50 p.m. ~ Move to the main hall. (only for green team) Practice ''cheering'' and singing for tomorrow.

6.28 p.m. ~ Move out of the hall and towards the field again. This time is for the food! Hahahahahahaha FINALLY!!!!! FOOD!!!! But it sucks so no point...

The whole event was actually quite nice. Except the part where we need to wear formal and stand under the sun at 3 p.m. in the AFTERNOON! Other than that was ok....

Registration morning in MMU

A quick post before i have 2 get ready and go MMU again... Can anyone imagine??? We have to be wearing formal shirt with that hot sunny weather out there... We are all going to melt! Anyway, when to MMU this morning for registration. I woke up early and reach there half and hour before the time stated on the paper... But it turns out i don't have to go SO early because the registration will be going on till 2 p.m. How happy i was there...when i hear that news... Dreaming about how i could get this done as soon as possible and head home to my lovely comfy bed... But NOOOOO!!! We have to be back there at 3 p.m. Under the hot sun. At the field. Oh GOD!

Next, the registration kit i got was a green bag with a shirt (which is not even my size)(i got no idea what is the point when they as me to state down my shirt size when they are not even looking at it), a bottle of water and 2 small booklets which are suppose to help me through the whole orientation (i don't know how). Overall, it was ok... But WAIT till i talk about tomorrow and the rest of the days of orientation... It is SUCK-ISH!!!! Thats it for now....

Nightmares....

Lately, i have been having nightmares about the same person. A person that i can't seem to understand why i feel such hate against.... Maybe it is because i never have a chance to know what actually happen. I have never have nightmares in my life. Because i consider nightmares as dreams that haunt you even after you are awake. Well this dream haunts me. Haunts me hard! I feel so weak. I don't want to feel weak. I don't want to feel that someone could take over me!

This would be the first time i ever so much wanted to curse someone in my blog. I wanted so much to yell out loud ''You brainless BIMBO!'' ''I might deserve the way you treat me, but you definitely do not deserve the way i treat you. The way i try so hard to remain patience with the words you use, the crappy attitude you have against me and the shameless accused you throw towards me.'' I know who i am. I know what i did in my past haunts me. But whatever! They hate me... They despise me.... They can say and do whatever they like... I know what i am doing now and there is nothing wrong about it. You can judge me all you want or you can scold me B**** again in facebook. To me they mean nothing but words that reflect the ones who say it...

P.S. Thanks to u SC i wanna be better... each time i feel so useless and suck-ish, i will think of you... You being better than me makes me wanna strangle myself. The picture of you will never leave my head. It would be a reminder!

Anger that i loathe...

A post before i go to bed... I just could not find a way to understand why am i so angry. The feeling that i had when i saw those pictures was almost unbearable. The anger that gush through me. The sudden raise in my body heat. The sudden urge of wanting to scream out loud. Yet, on the outside, i keep telling myself to just keep it calm. Curse all i want now but let it all go later. Can i do it???? I don't have a good feeling about it though. I will still try. Then another anger start growing in me. Is like i am more angry of myself because i don't know why am i angry. I know i could not turn to anyone to complaint except my best friend/my sister because she would probably be the only one that understand why i feel this way now. Others would just say i am over-reacting. Or maybe i am.....