Lately, i have been having nightmares about the same person. A person that i can't seem to understand why i feel such hate against.... Maybe it is because i never have a chance to know what actually happen. I have never have nightmares in my life. Because i consider nightmares as dreams that haunt you even after you are awake. Well this dream haunts me. Haunts me hard! I feel so weak. I don't want to feel weak. I don't want to feel that someone could take over me!
This would be the first time i ever so much wanted to curse someone in my blog. I wanted so much to yell out loud ''You brainless BIMBO!'' ''I might deserve the way you treat me, but you definitely do not deserve the way i treat you. The way i try so hard to remain patience with the words you use, the crappy attitude you have against me and the shameless accused you throw towards me.'' I know who i am. I know what i did in my past haunts me. But whatever! They hate me... They despise me.... They can say and do whatever they like... I know what i am doing now and there is nothing wrong about it. You can judge me all you want or you can scold me B**** again in facebook. To me they mean nothing but words that reflect the ones who say it...
P.S. Thanks to u SC i wanna be better... each time i feel so useless and suck-ish, i will think of you... You being better than me makes me wanna strangle myself. The picture of you will never leave my head. It would be a reminder!
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